A canvass of emotions,
abstract and confusing
Behind these words are unstitched feelings
I searched for thoughts I knew I couldn’t find
Stubborn and pathetic, I wasn’t only ready to admit;
There are no words for these feelings that I keep
As deep as the ocean is something inside me,
 shaking, hoping but never certain
I try to grasp up at the horizon,
But got only disconcertions.
I wished on a silver lining,
And found rainbows glimmering.
Then I knew I already fell,
For someone who makes everything unsure.
This affection I hid and tried to throw away,
But you keep on pushing it all back
and I knew too well I wanted them to stay
Mixed signals, I asked for signs
Crazy, because all I want is for you to be mine
Amidst my love for someone like you,
Is the truth that there will never be me and you.
Possibilities and chances the world throws,
I am for sure I need to let these all go.
You are just an illusion for my heart to keep
I am just an imagination, unreal and obsolete


This is for a dear friend of mine. He still loves you. 


I still remember

every second, every hour

the days your head rested on my shoulder

dreaming dreams over and over

I still remember

your words, they always linger

in my head, through all the towers

used to be sweet and never bitter

I still remember

your hazel eyes, to my surrender

in them I drowned and I grew stronger

you gave me faith, made me a fighter

I still remember

how we wasted every summer

with you I was never sober

drunk in love and life was better

I still remember

we planned everything together

we travelled and we wandered

we were there, I was your keeper

I still remember

the sound of your laughter

how you smiled and shrieked altogether

how you told me I never was a joker

I still remember

the days I picked you flowers

kissed you and hugged you tighter

held you close, burned in desire

I still remember

that one night you had me shattered

in tears and struck by thunder

broke my heart, you left me staggered

I still remember

you said my heart was for another

and that yours is getting weaker

it isn’t fate, it’s not forever

I still remember

everything we’ve been through

and my emotions have always lasted

after all these years, it’s still you

I still remember

the memories we’ve created

to the pictures of us two

still I treasure them, still I cherish you

And I know we can’t be

no more second chances

my heart still belongs to you

it still beats, it still screams “I love you.”

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